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Oct 12
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letters to phoenix // 10.

dearest phoenix,

so here we are again. another month has flown by and you are now 8 months old. and still melting our hearts on a moment-by-moment basis.

you seem to be in a big hurry to figure it all out. why crawl when you can stand? why play with blocks when you can create an app on the iphone? i’m constantly asking you to slow down. to remember that you’re just a little baby. that you don’t need to know.all.the.things.already.

it’s amazing learning about your little personality. and still mind-blowing to me that you have innate mannerisms that you didn’t pick up from us. for example, if i wear something you haven’t seen before, you’ll gently caress the new texture with the back of your pudgy dimpled hand. you take this investigation so seriously that i half expect you to go, WTF. this isn’t cashmere!

you possess such a joyful and happy spirit. you will let anyone hold you and you’ll smile at strangers on the street. you are already a little thrill seeker and love being thrown into the air, or lifted high onto your papa’s shoulders.

i’m still nursing you, but you are also eating all kinds of fruits and vegetables. when you get frustrated trying to pick up little mushy cubes with your fingers you resort to a wide-mouthed face-plant on your tray. and all the while, we laugh and take pictures. because we can’t help ourselves.

just look at you.

 

we’ve been working such long hours lately. the reality is that making a tv show is hard work. and running a company that’s producing daily content, while also making a tv show, leaves very little room for much else. and there are days that are really challenging. mostly because we’re up against inertia. there’s no real formula for what we’re setting out to do so everything is an experiment. and while we trust our guts, we don’t have the easy confidence of experts who’ve been creating this sort of programming for decades. i know that what we’re doing is ambitious, but i also know it’s important.

and amidst it all, you give me such perspective. your little heart reminds me why i’m doing this in the first place. and i know i’m forgetting a lot of the nuances of your day-to-day. it’s hard to keep a record of it all when we’re running at top speeds.

but one memory i am inscribing on my soul, is the way i feel each time i come home and my heart is flooded by the light of your smile.

love,
mama

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