i feel like i’ve always loved you, because i’ve always loved the idea of you. the idea that there is someone out there who can be a true friend. a spiritual teammate. the safest place to land. a constant source of inspiration. a source of joy. and hope. and love. and laughter. and sweetness.
you have saturated my life with all of these things. in abundance. in a way that at first made my head reel, but gradually i learned to trust. to this day, i’m still awestruck by your constant outpouring of love and affection. not one.single.day goes by that you don’t encase me in this warmth and even though we literally spend 24 hours a day together, there is no place else i’d rather be.
when you surprised me with a song you’d written for me at our wedding, you sang that you ‘recognize my light’ and i melted into a pile of tears and a white dress. i felt so much gratitude. for you. for us. i have etched that moment on my sinews and if our children ever ask how love feels i will describe those minutes and how their father transported an entire room to another place.
happy 29th my darling.